Shady's sleeping at the moment, which is for the best. Better she should be sleeping than beating herself up for something over which she had no control. She won't talk to me, but I read what happened in her blog. I know it's impossible to argue someone out of guilt, but none of it was her fault. If anything, RoadRunner is more to blame even than Prosper.
If Shady thinks appearing at her friend's workplace was coincidence, she hasn't been paying attention to RoadRunner's tactics or Prosper's targets. RoadRunner is absolutely mercenary in what she wants, whatever that may be. For some unknown reason, she's fixated on Shady. From the way she acted, it appears she's trying to make Shady just as savage and sociopathic as she is, but who knows if there's a deeper reason for her actions. Prosper is also focused on Shady and has been targeting friends from her past. So it's obvious, at least to me, that RoadRunner dragged Shady to a place where Prosper might become distracted by a new target. I would even hazard a guess that RoadRunner hoped seeing her friend die would inspire Shady to kill. I'm proud of her for defying RoadRunnner. I don't know that I would have been able to do the same in the heat of the moment, if someone had hurt Shady or one of the kids or even my idiot family.
And how is Billy's death Shady's fault at all? You don't choose who loves you. Regardless of whether Prosper stabbed Billy from the front or behind, I cant help but think he would have tried to intervene on Shady's behalf, with or without her blessing.
I don't begrudge Shady her grieving, but she is in no way to blame for any life Prosper has taken. Her grief shows that she is a compassionate and loving person, and that RoadRunner hasn't a chance in hell of changing that. I just hope Shady will be able to see that soon. I already don't like some of the things I read in her most recent entry or some of the things I've seen her doing... Fidgeting is the least of it, though I suppose her hand movements and "plucking" could be called that.
And she's already awake again... Maybe I can get her to eat something.
It looks like she's reading an imaginary book in midair, her finger sliding from left to right as she follows the sentences.....